Good morning everybody~
Good morning everybody~
Tumblr is fucking boring. Thinking about just calling it quits… I dont think i get it.
try and tell me this isnt awesome.
awww
If you don’t know, I’ve finally decided to put down the cigs. (For real this time y’all.) I didn’t wanna jinx myself so I hesitated sharing anything about this. But after a really good run of about ten, smoke filled years now, i’m ducking out. Quitting. Never looking back. Saying “fuck it, i’m out.”, to the absolute worst habit I’ve picked up, or stupid decision that I’ve ever made, in a life that is to be simply put, completely riddled with mistakes and brain farts. A life sprinkled throughout with absolutely terrible decisions on a timeline Spanning over a myriad of impulsive, foolish, regretful actions. All that, and smoking still takes the cake. So!, I’m breaking this shitty habit. Or at the very least, that’s the ball that i’m finally getting rolling.
As of right now, i’m on day four going strong. I’m now starting to get heavy cravings. I get them every thirty minutes or so. Smokers know how this feels. Non smokers… To best describe this feeling, it’s similar to the feeling you get when something you love, or something priceless to you, breaks right in front of your eyes, and you immediately miss it. You want it back and fixed, but it’s gone. Or when you realize you’ve forgotten a crucial item, on your very long, very time sensitive road trip, halfway through. Those helpless yearning feelings are how i feel, all the time now. It’s a strange feeling. I feel the tension that everybody talks about too. Everybody makes me angry. Its terrible.
I have very high hopes even considering all this. Whenever i have a craving i just remind myself of the rewards ahead. I Take a deep breath and calm my heart. Then guess what? It works. Wild right!?